Ever since I was a little girl, I have been shy. I remember one time my mom had taken me to a photographer for a kindergarten picture. I froze in fear and could not smile. When I was a first grade student at recess time you would find me hiding next to the school building. Today, as God calls me to come out of my insecurity, I often feel like the little girl hiding behind the school building.
I recently attended a silent retreat. I entered the retreat with no expectations and was excited to have some quiet time to pray. The leaders of the retreat gave us some various Scriptures to help guide us to focus and enter into prayer. One of the Scriptures that stood out to me was Mark 14:51-52. The leader instructed us how Mark was the only Gospel who had talked about a young man hiding at the Garden of Gethsemane, when the guards came to arrest Jesus. The guards had tried to seize the young man and he ran away. I was intrigued with this Scripture verse and the young man. I decided to use this Scripture verse to pray and ponder on.
It did not take me long when I remembered myself as a little girl, wearing a red coat and hiding next to the school building during recess. Just like the young man in Mark, I too was good at hiding. Even though I know I am called to do more and share the talents God has given me, I choose to hide and watch from a distance.
I began to think of all the times I have hidden instead of stepping out in faith to God's will for my life. I was similar to the young man because I would rather run and hide from my talents, words or wisdom.
After coming to terms with my insecurity, I felt encouraged to come out of hiding. From this moment on, I plan is to do the things that I have been afraid to do and trust in the will of God for my life.
In what ways do you find yourself hiding from the will of God? What are you ready to take on?